gunung stong

i love the waterfall!
rovers


adeline and me:)
whoopsy!


jack and jill went up the hill ;P

oranges, peas or plastics bag??? heh
kr vs sh

centipede!! momo says i look like a ball :S

鹤权！haiyak!


kok ping. liang jing ru fan
here come the lovelies.
one of my fav~
aww....
its a pity that the starlit sky couldn't be captured in photo.

but it'll always be on my mind.

poems

3.33 am and i am still awake.
in hall, this would be normal
at home, abnormal.

i chanced upon this person's blog
im beginning to be more and more interested in him.
im beginning to see ppl who are left out in a different light

cuz deep within them, lies a poet
none of us would have known
unless we have delved deeper

sneak previews

after reading a friend's blog, i see why i could feel the "connection" with her. Like her, i have no BEST friend. Its always good friends, a clique of friends, but who can u truly count on to be there for u all the time? i guess thats the role of a bf. BUT even if there isn't, there's always our family to lean on. They are the ones who will ALWAYS be there, no matter rain or shine. Love and Frienship may fade away, even turn sour, but family is something that is everlasting.

All the above is coming from one that speaks of words of experience, experiences that broke my heart and lead to the today's cynical view but still, i am hopeful that the world can still be beautiful place.

post holidays blues

dear diary,
its been a million years since i've updated u. i wonder if anyone still visits this god forsaken place. ( i highly doubt so, so if u do, pls tag me okie?:)

anw, it;s pretty hard to get started in reviewing my holz cuz im impaired by the lack of photos to illustrate.( a picture paints a thousand words u see)

Malaysia Day 1- Genting Highland
*Flying coaster x2 (cute technician) (boom scared. ha)
*Bumper Car
* stupid Van Helsing
* saw Jonathan!
* Pirate ship Viking (photo with funny guy)
* Flying Dragon
* Rolling Thunder Mine Train
* Flume Ride

Msia Day 2- Hop on Hop off bus in KL
* Petronas Tower (angmors, taking photo in the middle of road)
* KLCC
*Star Hill (posh!) i want the photos!
* Central Mkt
* Chinatown (petaling street)
* National Tower
* Parliament Bldg
* Asean Sculpture Park
* National Monument
* National Mosque (pink robes heh)
* KL train station ( lost, but i like, exciting)

Msia Day 3- Putrajaya ( where the riches and influencials are located)
* nice admin offices
* Justice Court( wahaha, i went to sit on the judges's sofa in their lounge!) (Hakim's lounge)
*Putra mosque
* some bridge

Msia Day 4- Melaka (heritage and surprises)
* ba jiao shan
* St. Paul's Church
* Stadthuys
* St John's Port
* Maritime Museum
* Malaca Sultanage palace
* Christ Church
* Cheng Ho Cultural Museum
* A Famosa Chicken Rice (jon again! :))
* Jonker Street ( Orang Utan artist! wad a pleasant surprise)

Day 5- KL
shopping

Day 6- Penan (kudos to Jia Minh the driver)
* Penang Hill ( just a glimpse at the foot of it)
* Temple ( kek lok si, inclined lift, bracelets for popo, jiu mu and mama)
* Koo Kong Si
* St Anne's Church
* Tou Sa Pia
* Speed Racer the movie ( met Wee Wen)

Thailand Day 1: Shopping!!!!
* Pratunam and Platinum ( omg, i m so gg to stay at GRand Diamond Hotel with uncle and aunt next time)
* bfast with nana :)
* Pra Prohm night mkt
* foot massage by little kiddo (too late to apologise, sorry no tips :(

Day 2: sight seeing
* hundred year old market
(yummy trad. ice cream, coconut with peanut) (antique toy shop!)doraemon postcard yay!
* Aquarium Lake ( fishy fishy)
* Zoo! ( super close) ( jumbo, laura and billy!) jumbo's foot 好温暖！
* Palace (sadly only stuck at gates cuz of blur driver. grr) which reminds me of the exorbidant fuel fees.
* Silom street(head, shoulder and back massage, heavenly!)
*MBK (cute shop lub lub) yummy food too!

Day 3-
* Bo Bae Market
* Grand Palace
* Dusit Place and Golden teakwood
* Pat Pong ( 4 face buddha) (dance naked?!)
* Siam Paragon

Day 4-
* Patthaya, luckily not Pat Um kee( lost in hokkien)
* Sri Racha Tiger Farm ( touch cub!) ( croc show) (pig racing) (elephant show, feed banana! yay)
* Outlet shopping mall (sadness, nothing can buy)
* Alkazar Aqua show ( chio but zzz)
* Walking street (chicken st mayb) Y

Day 4: relaxing
* swimming with nana( took me guts)
* lousy bfast
* got lost! 6054 topless guy, haha qt fun la ( mental note> pls rmb room no next time!)
* YUMMY seafood, tom yum, duck egg sotong!
* airport china ppl chat

Gunung Stong:
I love looking at the sky, watching clouds roll by, watching the sky twinkle with stars. To my very own surprise, i really enjoyed both the Rovers trek that i've been to. Gunung Datuk and Gunung Stong have been challenging yet satistfying. Though i cant say that love every single bit of it, at least not the 两肋插刀 ground ( only Adeline would understand wad im talking abt). I love the waterfall experience where nature gave free massage. I love the idea of climbing up up up and testing my very own limit. I love bathing at the waterfall and enjoying jacuzzi the natural way. I totally enjoyed the night singing-cum-star gazing session with clara and adeline on the first night. It was such a great night for me. The second night's sky paled in comparision due to the clouds and also the fact that our first class seats with the natural inclination and head rest was taken. But i gained another valuable experience when i chat with Maryam, feels really nice to be engaged in thoughtful, sincere and honest conversation. It made me feel envious of her, yet fully blissed for her. I could totally imagine her and her fiance lovingly staring into the beautiful night sky tgt on the top of the mt. i wish i could have one too... Apart from that, I enjoyed the night gossip session too but unfortuanately my i was dozing off alr. :( some interesting insights from the poker card reading session by john too. haha, on pk and gerald. 心有杂念。。。


On Friendship:
Im really thankful that i have friends like clara and adeline accompanying me in this trek. Without them, i dun even think i would even have the chance to experience all these. Esp adeline, i really thank her for tolerating my "wall mode" and emo spells where i just shut off from the world and become anti-social. I would really love to go for more treks with her and clara.

And nana too, i would be elated if i could travel with her overseas. This trip to bkk has made me realize that we have quite alot of similar thoughts. And i admire and respect her for her character. I think i can learn alot if things from her. Like being more confident and daring.

i realise i miss my friends alot. Since i came back, i realise i lost contact with ppl like Mab, Zhu, Yokey, ZhaoXiu, Wanting. Thankfullly F4, yuny and qing manage to keep in contact somehow. I miss u all!!

Yuny, im looking fwd to more house visits and gary concert!
i wish eason has a concert! Totally wanna go shopping with u @ bkk lo, tink we'll all go MAD!

Qing: i wanna emo with u! haha, lets watch more artsy movie tgt
Mab, Zhu,Yokey, Zhaoxiu, wanting: wei, i got soveniurs for u all lei, 快约我！！！

On Travel:
One month of travelling has made me realize that i Can live without technology. It has made me a more independant person. And i realise that indeed i have changed from the past. I have learnt to appreciate and embrace silence and solidarity. 可爱， 是一种表演， 或许也是一种早熟的掩饰. I also learn to love my lovely family more and more. I guess there will be no end to this. Love my Mummy and momo deep deep :DDD

On work:
Im feeling quite reluctant to start work at my aunt's. Cuz from wad i gather, it seems that i have to attend night school or a course on property. :S
ew.. i dun tink i wanna spend my holz studying.. boo. but yet again, im very excited to be working in the new environment and learning new stuff. i hope my colleagues( if i even have) will be as nice as those in dbs. BUT i dun wanna meet ppl, no beasts like eddie. yuck.

On School :S
oh! i still have totally no idea when school is going to reopen.

On grades :
thankful that i got above 3.5
but abit sad this sem no As at all. B+ B B-
I have all the Bs but not the most impt one. ha

The story of Xante:
"I wish that one day, there would be a special someone that i can travel with tgt, who can emo with me, go crazy with me, become cynical with me, gaze at stars with me, marvel at art work and be deep in thoughts after watching movies and poems, sing aloud with me at kbox, sob at romance serials, and also pinpoint out my mistakes and guide me to the correct path, treat me both like a baby and a partner, extend his hands to me when i need, give me thai massage when my back aches, lend me a shoulder to lean on when im sad, give me an assuring gaze that everything will be ok and fine as long as he's there."

last day of mugging

ε(●̮̮̃•̃)з

cute emoticon i got from msn. hee
*
emo reading that made my eye tear

Woods Hole. Midnight. I am sitting in the dark of my daughter's room. Her monitor lights blink at me. The lights used to blink too brightly so I covered them with bits of bandage adhesive and now they flash faintly underneath, a persistent red and green, Lillie's heart and lungs. Above the monitor is her portable suction unit. In the glow of the flashlight I'm writing by, it looks like the plastic guts of a science-class human model, the tubes coiled around the power supply, the reservoir, the pump.

Tina is upstairs trying to get some sleep. A baby monitor links our bedroom to Lillie's. It links our sleep to Lillie's too, and because our souls are linked to hers, we do not sleep well.

I am naked. My stomach is full of beer. The flashlight rests on it, and the beam rises and falls with my breath. My daughter breathes through a white plastic tube inserted into a hole in her throat. She's fourteen months old.

the first para made an impact on me.
*
sometime, my life reaches a disjuncture. i am thorn(pun intended) between being hypersensitive and reaching absolute bleakness and then it swings to nonchalence. The next moment when my sight lands on a turning head, the sides of my lips start to reach for my ears. confused? So am i.

when trees turn blue

nice ma? :) its dried lavenders la~
study dao siao liao~~~


blue tree stikes back!

KRV Dinner @ Pizza Bar! KeeLong was so nice to treat us! the bill was like $200+ la~! rich sia.

Ps: Ms Nah, i tink u'll be gg bonker when u hear that i sat so close to Mr D cuz we all( yes all 10) had to squeeze in the car! haha. He's really a good catch but so sad MS lucky has done so earlier! boo :'(

when u get sick of jia jia, try pipa mi! * warning: things that look nice dun necessarily taste likewise. haha
***
yay, im probably going to be job shadowing my aunt during the holz as a property agent! fun fun! yay, i get to be her ka kia! hee, she earns a whooping 6 digit amt la, still can fetch me ard and willing to teach me of cuz i;d be more than willing to learn! hee, mummy ask me to call her Kai Ma. Sugar mummy! lol. Hee, looks like im gg to graduate from the Chai Academy soon le, starting with shoe sales @ Midas now to property! wadz next man? kekek

btw, Mr J is so cute! heex

zoom!

hands

还记得那场音乐会的烟火
还记得那个凉凉的深秋
还记得人潮把你推向了我
游乐园拥挤的正是时候
一个夜晚坚持不睡的等候
一起泡温泉奢侈的享受
有一次日记里愚蠢的困惑
因为你的微笑幻化成风
你大大的勇敢保护着我
我小小的关怀喋喋不休
感谢我们一起走了那么久
又再一起回到凉凉深秋
给你我的手像温柔野兽
把自由交给草原的辽阔
我们小手拉大手一起交游
今天别想太多你是我的梦
像北方的风
却正能帮我悠扬的哀愁
今天加油向昨天挥挥手
又一起回到凉凉深秋
我们一直就这样向前走
却正南方暖洋洋的哀愁
lalalalala...
今天为我加油
舍不得挥挥手
*
my wonderful essay. feel very proud of myself. wahaha.

Beautiful songs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38A4Dz47MRo&feature=related

Moon river wider than a mile
Im crossing you in style someday
You dream maker, you heartbreaker
Wherever youre going
Im going your way
Two drifters off to see the world
Theres such a lot of world to see
Were after the same rainbows end
Waiting round the band
My huckleberry friend
moon river
And me
*1961, 2007* 2 diff versions

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, Ill say it clear,
Ill state my case, of which Im certain
.Ive lived a life thats full.
Ive traveled each and evry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, Ive had a few
;But then again,
too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption
.I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Yes, there were times,
Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all,
when there was doubt
,I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried
.Ive had my fill;
my share of losing
.And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,I did it my way
.For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels
.The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!

this is for Windsor

dear diary,

its quite sad and disappointing at times when we see the whole world spinning so quickly that they have spun out and left people behind.

Often, they are the forgotten ones. Or even worse, they are being despised upon and regarded as burdens.

If one will just slow down the pace and bother to care, sometimes it just feels really nice to just listen to wad they have to say. Whether or not it is a fabrication of their imagination or something true doesn't really matter, we just need to provide a listening ear. In fact, it add dimension if it is indeed a made-up story for it shows how hard they try to seek attention or make meaning of their meaningless lives...

Even a home has its politics. First thing when we steped into the home, this man told us straight in the face that we should not be here as this home actually charges alot. haiz. how encouraging...

but then i was thinking... does it matter whether we give it to the rich or poor? they are all people. 老人家 that aren't in a 家。maybe we have just chosen them due to the convenience, maybe wad we have brought them is just temporary joy.

seeing talkative auntie talk on and on and smiling and being quite a vainpot is very delightful but on the other end there is this auntie who just looks at me in the eye and repeats " xie xie ni"... i could feel that she really meant it. and it was indeed a heartfelt thank you. 她眼角的泪说明了一切。。。if hearts could really be broken, i guess mine would have shattered in to a million pieces.
***
the thought of seperation... things will never be the same again...
so near yet so far...

holz mood

FOOD HUNT on fri! hee~

i tink im really a pig. i rmb b4 the food hunt i was still feeling sian and stress cuz i was doing my essay but during the journey to the food hunt, i was pleasantly surprised that i was in fact pretty happy.

yay, i love the red tea longan~ yum yum, next time must bring family there to eat! (haha, though it looked kinda gross in my pic)
ethel bong and clara, and all the yummy food! hee

central library view.

wad a pity~ such pretty scenery being portrayed yond the window frame...

hee, happy with my buy! yay, going to STONG with adeline and clara during holz! super looking fwd!
***
im super looking fwd to after the exams man.

hee, im very excited and abit nervous cuz i'll be going on a mini "毕业旅行”tgt with jia ee and cherry to msia and thailand.

haha, and im going to take a flight back to spore alone! haha, hope i meet some shuai ge on the seat beside me. haha

abit scared cuz it's the first time im traveling w/o any form of supervision. ie. I must be really independent. Last time always is go with some form of "protection" de, be it family trips, school trips. So this time, jia ee and cherry must take care of me alr! haha, afterall its their home countries! haha. note to myself: No 小姐脾气，no room for unhappiness, no being sian sian and affect everyone else. No tinking too much. 一切以大局为重。
*heart thumping* pop pop pop pop

but rising above from all those worries, im really looking fwd! YAY! im sure i can do it.

晓婷长大了哦! really qt surprised when mama so easy peasy 就让我go... haha.

on a side note, very sorry to clara for making her (and me too!) all so excited to go tgt but in the end i nv go with her... but im sure our stong trip will be great. YES la, so many guys! keke Allah



but i can foresee having more travel trips with clara de la, really hope f4 can go tgt...(sometimes i really miss kaiying and lynn so much... missing our jixun and dazu and fenzu and ock squid head and ppc and slacking at lynn house)



and i wanna go shopping with YUNY! seriously my NUMBER 1 shopping kaki. i tink we'll shop at bangkok until 没天没夜 lo... haha. so amazing when we look like wang sha ye feng tgt but yet we can shop tgt so harmoniously!!!! 爱死你了！ hee

year 1 is coming to an end soon.... 超快的啦！

phantoming

dear diary,


its quite sad to be working on my 1.5k essay on a fri evening when i should be either at home slacking or gai gai-ing outside. so i decided to blog! hee.


later got food hunt with eguanas~ contemplating gg home after the 2nd stop with huiru...

sat got trinity den sunday got lighthouse. so busy hor. but its enriching la.


wed cell with kaixin was really nice. ppl nice and the things everything just seemed to go with the flow. 我这个冰山美人 ( bhb) haha, was defrosted by the wonderful ice breaker of uno stacko! yep, very fun. *jay, rambutan.


yest was COMMAND, where the graduating seniors put up a performance for us, we had nice dinner with romantic atmosphere. feel quite sad for all the nice seniors were leaving alr. nice ppl like benny and robin. the 7F pillars like ron, wilson, yaozong also leaving. will E blk still be the same? i doubt so but this is life. it goes on.

how cliched.


anw, i was looking out for all the nice quotes from wikiquote, really glad that hong recommended it to me. love this site.

i love shakespeare work, and i had revisited arun. roy's GOST and never fail to feel my heart wrench each time i read the words over and over again. then there is Phantom of the Opera.

Im glad that i got to watch the play in UK but unfortunately i didn't really understand it then. wad a pity! its only now that to my amazement that i realize it belongs to this particular play.
past the point of no return, masquerade, why so silent... basically i love all the poto soundtracks :)

This quote aptly sums everything up.
All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players:They have their exits and their entrances;And one man in his time plays many parts. Jaques, scene vii

sometimes i find nr fren being more sensitive than fren c. izit because they are so concerned abt the particular one that they neglect those ard? i dono. my worst nightmare is if ever i die in my room or disappear from the face of earth, will anyone notice? haiz. sometimes i feel so alone in this vast world. sometimes i wish i could just melt into the heart of darkness and join in tgt with the stars, or become part of the clouds...

"Stranger than you dreamt it, can you even bear to look? Or dare to think of me... this loathsome gargoyle who burns in hell but secretly, secretly yearns for heaven, secretly... But Christine... Fear can turn to love. You'll learn to see, to find the man behind the monster, this... repulsive carcass that seems a beast but secretly dreams of beauty... Oh, Christine..." - Stranger Than You Dreamt It

"This haunted face holds no horror for me now. It's in your soul that the true distortion lies."


Past the point of no return, the final threshold. What warm unspoken secrets will we learn?" - The Point of No Return


"Masquerade! Paper faces on parade. Masquerade! Hide your face so the world will never find you." - Masquerade


Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime. Lead me, save me from my solitude. Say you want me with you here, beside you. Anywhere you go let me go too. Christine, that's all I ask of--" The Point of No Return


In an amazing way, i was reminded of POYO( practice on your own). haha, i cant really rmb whether it was ms FANG or mrs tan(?) my jc maths teacher...

anw, im really glad to be learning more and more about the arts. (un)fortunately, my learning is only contrained to incidental learning, memory work is "rocket science" to me. annoying.

i wish to upload some photos but the com is not allowing me to. till next time den. farewell~

flashbacks

On 25th March 2008, Kent Ridge Hall E Block 3rd Floor Girls came together and prepared for our OPEN FLOOR!

look at our wonderful show house, totally pro sia~ swee la!
jo jo and shiqi with our nice wall of fame! haha
on wed, val and i went to the src pool to get a tan! hah, the sun was really glaring so nice val lent me her glam shades! val looks kinda cui here but wait till u see her in her bikini! WOO~
bet all the chi ko peks will open mouth big big like me! haha
even my mama claps for her! lol
yay, today clara and i played badminton @ mpsh from noon to 3 plus. ABSOLUTELY SHIOK AH!!!! whack whack whack!

mei and i! love mei so much, thanks for letting me use ur new baobei lappie for my essay :)
that day mama and mei and i went to vivo to shop tgt. blissfulness! hee. i knew somehow they would be at GIANT. haha, seriously my mum is a major reason for my auntie syndrome. but im PROUD of it.

the magnolia white clouds against the azure blue sky~
ke ai de momo

a nice quote

“There is neither happiness nor misery in the world;
there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more.
He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness.”
Alexandre Dumas in The Count of Monte Cristo