when trees turn blue

nice ma? :) its dried lavenders la~
study dao siao liao~~~


blue tree stikes back!

KRV Dinner @ Pizza Bar! KeeLong was so nice to treat us! the bill was like $200+ la~! rich sia.

Ps: Ms Nah, i tink u'll be gg bonker when u hear that i sat so close to Mr D cuz we all( yes all 10) had to squeeze in the car! haha. He's really a good catch but so sad MS lucky has done so earlier! boo :'(

when u get sick of jia jia, try pipa mi! * warning: things that look nice dun necessarily taste likewise. haha
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yay, im probably going to be job shadowing my aunt during the holz as a property agent! fun fun! yay, i get to be her ka kia! hee, she earns a whooping 6 digit amt la, still can fetch me ard and willing to teach me of cuz i;d be more than willing to learn! hee, mummy ask me to call her Kai Ma. Sugar mummy! lol. Hee, looks like im gg to graduate from the Chai Academy soon le, starting with shoe sales @ Midas now to property! wadz next man? kekek

btw, Mr J is so cute! heex

zoom!

hands

还记得那场音乐会的烟火
还记得那个凉凉的深秋
还记得人潮把你推向了我
游乐园拥挤的正是时候
一个夜晚坚持不睡的等候
一起泡温泉奢侈的享受
有一次日记里愚蠢的困惑
因为你的微笑幻化成风
你大大的勇敢保护着我
我小小的关怀喋喋不休
感谢我们一起走了那么久
又再一起回到凉凉深秋
给你我的手像温柔野兽
把自由交给草原的辽阔
我们小手拉大手一起交游
今天别想太多你是我的梦
像北方的风
却正能帮我悠扬的哀愁
今天加油向昨天挥挥手
又一起回到凉凉深秋
我们一直就这样向前走
却正南方暖洋洋的哀愁
lalalalala...
今天为我加油
舍不得挥挥手
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my wonderful essay. feel very proud of myself. wahaha.

Beautiful songs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38A4Dz47MRo&feature=related

Moon river wider than a mile
Im crossing you in style someday
You dream maker, you heartbreaker
Wherever youre going
Im going your way
Two drifters off to see the world
Theres such a lot of world to see
Were after the same rainbows end
Waiting round the band
My huckleberry friend
moon river
And me
*1961, 2007* 2 diff versions

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, Ill say it clear,
Ill state my case, of which Im certain
.Ive lived a life thats full.
Ive traveled each and evry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, Ive had a few
;But then again,
too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption
.I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Yes, there were times,
Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all,
when there was doubt
,I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried
.Ive had my fill;
my share of losing
.And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,I did it my way
.For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels
.The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!

this is for Windsor

dear diary,

its quite sad and disappointing at times when we see the whole world spinning so quickly that they have spun out and left people behind.

Often, they are the forgotten ones. Or even worse, they are being despised upon and regarded as burdens.

If one will just slow down the pace and bother to care, sometimes it just feels really nice to just listen to wad they have to say. Whether or not it is a fabrication of their imagination or something true doesn't really matter, we just need to provide a listening ear. In fact, it add dimension if it is indeed a made-up story for it shows how hard they try to seek attention or make meaning of their meaningless lives...

Even a home has its politics. First thing when we steped into the home, this man told us straight in the face that we should not be here as this home actually charges alot. haiz. how encouraging...

but then i was thinking... does it matter whether we give it to the rich or poor? they are all people. 老人家 that aren't in a 家。maybe we have just chosen them due to the convenience, maybe wad we have brought them is just temporary joy.

seeing talkative auntie talk on and on and smiling and being quite a vainpot is very delightful but on the other end there is this auntie who just looks at me in the eye and repeats " xie xie ni"... i could feel that she really meant it. and it was indeed a heartfelt thank you. 她眼角的泪说明了一切。。。if hearts could really be broken, i guess mine would have shattered in to a million pieces.
***
the thought of seperation... things will never be the same again...
so near yet so far...

holz mood

FOOD HUNT on fri! hee~

i tink im really a pig. i rmb b4 the food hunt i was still feeling sian and stress cuz i was doing my essay but during the journey to the food hunt, i was pleasantly surprised that i was in fact pretty happy.

yay, i love the red tea longan~ yum yum, next time must bring family there to eat! (haha, though it looked kinda gross in my pic)
ethel bong and clara, and all the yummy food! hee

central library view.

wad a pity~ such pretty scenery being portrayed yond the window frame...

hee, happy with my buy! yay, going to STONG with adeline and clara during holz! super looking fwd!
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im super looking fwd to after the exams man.

hee, im very excited and abit nervous cuz i'll be going on a mini "毕业旅行”tgt with jia ee and cherry to msia and thailand.

haha, and im going to take a flight back to spore alone! haha, hope i meet some shuai ge on the seat beside me. haha

abit scared cuz it's the first time im traveling w/o any form of supervision. ie. I must be really independent. Last time always is go with some form of "protection" de, be it family trips, school trips. So this time, jia ee and cherry must take care of me alr! haha, afterall its their home countries! haha. note to myself: No 小姐脾气，no room for unhappiness, no being sian sian and affect everyone else. No tinking too much. 一切以大局为重。
*heart thumping* pop pop pop pop

but rising above from all those worries, im really looking fwd! YAY! im sure i can do it.

晓婷长大了哦! really qt surprised when mama so easy peasy 就让我go... haha.

on a side note, very sorry to clara for making her (and me too!) all so excited to go tgt but in the end i nv go with her... but im sure our stong trip will be great. YES la, so many guys! keke Allah



but i can foresee having more travel trips with clara de la, really hope f4 can go tgt...(sometimes i really miss kaiying and lynn so much... missing our jixun and dazu and fenzu and ock squid head and ppc and slacking at lynn house)



and i wanna go shopping with YUNY! seriously my NUMBER 1 shopping kaki. i tink we'll shop at bangkok until 没天没夜 lo... haha. so amazing when we look like wang sha ye feng tgt but yet we can shop tgt so harmoniously!!!! 爱死你了！ hee

year 1 is coming to an end soon.... 超快的啦！

phantoming

dear diary,


its quite sad to be working on my 1.5k essay on a fri evening when i should be either at home slacking or gai gai-ing outside. so i decided to blog! hee.


later got food hunt with eguanas~ contemplating gg home after the 2nd stop with huiru...

sat got trinity den sunday got lighthouse. so busy hor. but its enriching la.


wed cell with kaixin was really nice. ppl nice and the things everything just seemed to go with the flow. 我这个冰山美人 ( bhb) haha, was defrosted by the wonderful ice breaker of uno stacko! yep, very fun. *jay, rambutan.


yest was COMMAND, where the graduating seniors put up a performance for us, we had nice dinner with romantic atmosphere. feel quite sad for all the nice seniors were leaving alr. nice ppl like benny and robin. the 7F pillars like ron, wilson, yaozong also leaving. will E blk still be the same? i doubt so but this is life. it goes on.

how cliched.


anw, i was looking out for all the nice quotes from wikiquote, really glad that hong recommended it to me. love this site.

i love shakespeare work, and i had revisited arun. roy's GOST and never fail to feel my heart wrench each time i read the words over and over again. then there is Phantom of the Opera.

Im glad that i got to watch the play in UK but unfortunately i didn't really understand it then. wad a pity! its only now that to my amazement that i realize it belongs to this particular play.
past the point of no return, masquerade, why so silent... basically i love all the poto soundtracks :)

This quote aptly sums everything up.
All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players:They have their exits and their entrances;And one man in his time plays many parts. Jaques, scene vii

sometimes i find nr fren being more sensitive than fren c. izit because they are so concerned abt the particular one that they neglect those ard? i dono. my worst nightmare is if ever i die in my room or disappear from the face of earth, will anyone notice? haiz. sometimes i feel so alone in this vast world. sometimes i wish i could just melt into the heart of darkness and join in tgt with the stars, or become part of the clouds...

"Stranger than you dreamt it, can you even bear to look? Or dare to think of me... this loathsome gargoyle who burns in hell but secretly, secretly yearns for heaven, secretly... But Christine... Fear can turn to love. You'll learn to see, to find the man behind the monster, this... repulsive carcass that seems a beast but secretly dreams of beauty... Oh, Christine..." - Stranger Than You Dreamt It

"This haunted face holds no horror for me now. It's in your soul that the true distortion lies."


Past the point of no return, the final threshold. What warm unspoken secrets will we learn?" - The Point of No Return


"Masquerade! Paper faces on parade. Masquerade! Hide your face so the world will never find you." - Masquerade


Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime. Lead me, save me from my solitude. Say you want me with you here, beside you. Anywhere you go let me go too. Christine, that's all I ask of--" The Point of No Return


In an amazing way, i was reminded of POYO( practice on your own). haha, i cant really rmb whether it was ms FANG or mrs tan(?) my jc maths teacher...

anw, im really glad to be learning more and more about the arts. (un)fortunately, my learning is only contrained to incidental learning, memory work is "rocket science" to me. annoying.

i wish to upload some photos but the com is not allowing me to. till next time den. farewell~

flashbacks

On 25th March 2008, Kent Ridge Hall E Block 3rd Floor Girls came together and prepared for our OPEN FLOOR!

look at our wonderful show house, totally pro sia~ swee la!
jo jo and shiqi with our nice wall of fame! haha
on wed, val and i went to the src pool to get a tan! hah, the sun was really glaring so nice val lent me her glam shades! val looks kinda cui here but wait till u see her in her bikini! WOO~
bet all the chi ko peks will open mouth big big like me! haha
even my mama claps for her! lol
yay, today clara and i played badminton @ mpsh from noon to 3 plus. ABSOLUTELY SHIOK AH!!!! whack whack whack!

mei and i! love mei so much, thanks for letting me use ur new baobei lappie for my essay :)
that day mama and mei and i went to vivo to shop tgt. blissfulness! hee. i knew somehow they would be at GIANT. haha, seriously my mum is a major reason for my auntie syndrome. but im PROUD of it.

the magnolia white clouds against the azure blue sky~
ke ai de momo

a nice quote

“There is neither happiness nor misery in the world;
there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more.
He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness.”
Alexandre Dumas in The Count of Monte Cristo

Good Friday

HAPPY BELATED 20TH BIRTHDAY TO

NAH ZHU HUI!!!

my yummy cold udon with seafood tempura! whee~ im sorry my picture doesn't really do justice to how appetising it is. ;P
wah! 2 美女s! hee
yam cha!@
heard from zhu that this jap desert shop is famous de lo! like the ambience inside although they could mayb dim the lights a little. keke. Oya, i must mention that the ambience at Waraku is very romantic! we got the windows seat! hee, birthday girl got good luck!
i like the intricate detail on the plate!

We then sent Zhu back into her room before the clock striked 12. den after that mab and i( actually only mab) went bonkers and flustered over wad to do to make zhu's bday a BLAST! haha, though we din really blast her away literally, i sure hope we made her feel fuzzy fuzzy. hee, so fast become 20 le. No more a teen, become a tee alr, AUNT tee. teehehehe.

***

Earlier on, i went to watch Kaixin's church drama tgt with Dung. and i received Christ. its really amazing, but im a baby christian, hope my faith grows stronger as the day goes by. Its really heartwarming to see all the glowing faces when i tell them the news. Like Sheryl, JoJo, Hong, Nicole, Lynn. Yokey and Trina too, though i dun get to see their face.

I really like this line from John:

The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.

i feel it describes my situation.

***

today i handed up my 2 essays plus did my ppt on the 10page essay. hee, feels so good to throw away the gigantic rock that landed on my shoulder. and i felt pretty happy that i made the class laugh during my ppt albeit i very malu cuz i was very auntie and gong. hope that farhana wont tink im a joker and nv take my work seriously cuz i put in alot of effort in all my essays de lo! anw, mayb its cheap trills or wad la, but i enjoy seeing smiley faces on other ppl. I feel happy when i know that i have brightened up someone's day! hee.

haha, den theres felix the cat. first time someone ask for my msn lei. mayb i should be more ke siao all the time. hehe.

later is open floor le. YAY, food here i come. good timing for celebrations!WEE~

on marriage

dear diary,
my life now seems to be revolving ard the topic of marriage! ah~~~
1. my culture essay is on chinese weddings, have to write freaking 10page essay!
2. watched 27 dresses
3. watched THE WEDDING DATE
omg, got me totally addicted. this is BAD.
the guy is so darn charming. his hands, his voice, his sexy hair~~~
i want a birthday date too! haha. no la, im too shy alr. lol.

seriously i should heed clara's advice and stop watching so much drama. my weak heart is unable to take all these passion sia...

i know i dont know u yet i want u so bad~~~ lyrics of secret by maroon 5

i came back because i'd rather fight with u than make love to another.

i totally cant seem to get started on my essays. sigh.

so near yet so far

dear diary,

my weekends have been so wonderful that today seem rather hard to trudge by.

fri night buffet with chai family was wonderful.

sleeping in the study room which looked like japanese style bedroom was fun.

sat shopping singing with yuny was like zooom! and super enjoyable:)))

love marina square!

this 2 dress top are so lovely, but the price is VERY LOVELY too.siao liao la $90++ for a top. wait till i find a money printing laogong first ba~

this checkered one is so kawaii i like! but also qt ex. stupid.wahah, i bot the katie tank! whee~ 50% off.

sun working at midas was relaxing and enriching. raymond and family also send me back to hostel, feel so loved.

today ah... busy but empty. nvm, 2 days hiong den later can slack le.

somehow i feel abit troubled and this cloud of uncertainty is looming over me...

hai, stupid clara in movieland, so busy these few weeks. we should have ikea getaways soon...

clara looking qt funny~ heh. ms lime green

shall focus on the happy news that my parents are back! yay!

Bangkok Love Story

i totally love the ambience. so romantic! frosty frosty~
my yummy dinner at White Dog Cafe... i want the lobster soup! haha
cute dress!
the paw shaped strawberry... which is now in my stomach anw. heh

Cherry introduced this thai movie to me. haha, found it very nice. got cute handsome guys and they explored the very sensitive issue of homosexuality. Read some reviews about it and found that there underneath all the controversy of gay love and sex scenes, theres also underlying subtle discrimination of class and perhaps mockery of the thai police.

actually i dun care abt those, but i found the director being very apt in capturing their inner conflict and struggle. the scenes were really beautiful and jaw-dropping. if u tink having a tub bath at the rooftop, facing all the cbd buildings atrocious, wait till a handsome hunk comes along scrubing ur chest and escalating into deep kisses that seem to be able to draw all the sadness or soul out of ur mouth..i though it was really beautiful that he director captured the scene of their reflections in the water. Also the very fact that their forbidden love which is supposed to be hidden in the closet is being audaciously and paradoxically thrusted in the open.

i found this movie rather intriguing and yea, i realize i do have a thing for the deviant stuff. haha.

poignantly, it reminded me of gost. Somehow, i feel that one's childhood can deeply affect the future when u become an adult.

Wounds may heal but the scars remain.

****

watched the leap years with min yest

not bad tho i felt it could have been done much better. perphaps everything was done too blatantly and there was minimal subtleties and not exactly very thought provoking. Ah! thats the word, i enjoy movies that leave u with many many thoughts. And it could have been more delicate and yet majestic in its simplicity.

but going out to civilisation is indeed liberating. kinda sick of the monotony...cant wait for my family to be back from china! looking fwd to the vietnam-malaysia-thailand trip with my dear neighbours. haha.