kaiying's 20th :D

im proud of the beautiful card:)

hope ky liked our mini 接机way of welcoming her. haha.

F4:D (one of the rare grp photos again)

i become the photographer. haha

i tink lynn looks very pretty in this photo:)

the zenzai was super yummy too! *craves*

独眼cake/monster :P

we all got addicted to taking monster shots. keke

im super pleased with my cold seafood ramen. yummy ;D
i like the effect of this pic:)

cheers!

Memories

that are nothing but yet mean everything.
~ S diary

i miss pk :( suddenly i feel like rushing home and digging out all the hidden memories, i feel like counting the number of stars and hearts in the little package tho i know is 13.14. i wanna count the number of iloveu u wrote. 1314. i wanna go back to that particular day where the events clash and i choose to go with frenz but my heart was with u. i wanna wear the ring on my finger instead of hiding it away. i wanna go out with you every single time u asked me out. i wanna hold your hand when u mustered up all the courage to ask me thru the sands.

but its too late. all these are nothing now. but yet they mean everything to me.

i wonder if all these have never happen, would i be happier?
cuz i would not have yearned the bliss

i had to steal this from z's blog. i love every single sentence of it.

"The only dream worth having…is to dream that you will live while you’re alive and die only when you’re dead. To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never to forget."

~ Arundhari Roy, The God of Small Things

hopeful

im really looking fwd to the coming week.
where i shall have my official break.
all these freaking essays are killing me.

tues noon -liberty
wed-shopping with qing.
can someone pls date me out? haha. i want kBOX session!

omg, the word "shopping" seems to have taken the shape of an alien/ufo

in the meantime, this entire week is dedicated to sc2101, with occasion interuptions of meetings, fb trg, touch trg and ivy bday celeb and ky bday celeb.

ok if i manage to finish my essay by then then it would truly be a celebration.

i feel damn bad cuz this week seems to be packed with alot of my good frenz bday. and i cannot afford the luxury of time and effort to do sth nice for them. :(

ok, i declare next week will be arts and crafts week:)

btw, i recently created a new group in my msn: ♥
里面都是我在乎的人
There isn't alot of people unlike this particular group which is constantly flooded with familiar strangers.
but at least i know when i feel lonely and sad, or i see their nick require my attn( whether good or bad) i can 第一时间 chat with them, and i has proven very useful.
Tried and tested :D

at least now i dun need to scroll down in agony, staring at the screen where the entire world seems online but there isnt a damn person that i can talk to.

crossroads

Alice: "oh no, which path should i take?"

Chesire: " Do u have a place in mind?"

Alice: " no..."

Chesire: " then it doesn't matter"

*adapted from the novel, Alice in Wonderland( at least that was how i rmb it)

I wish i had a chesire cat too.

kudos to wikiquote:

'Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?''That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,''I don't know where. . .''Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.

more often than not

the one who get hurts the most,

is usually

the one that cares the most

unfortunately

metamorphism

it dawned on me that ' extrovert and loud and cheery' became a past tense.
it was a self-fulfilling prophecy.

appreciation for the subtle and mundanes soars.

the lightning- such wretched beauty.


表面上看起来平静的湖水
里面可能就暗藏着急流
how apt a description for the human facade

is the english version,
still water runs deep?

take a bow

my sketches for the rovers tee... the right design i got inspiration from my pink dorothy perkins tee which i love so dear until got hole le i still wear. keke.

this birdie one i got inspiration from my birdie bag which yuny bot for me. after drawing abt one thousand of these birds for ky bday chair i am master at drawing birds.lol

someone commented that its very cute. lol. can use for b2b. wahaha. happy:D effort-less

this is the one that i am most satisfied with:) it has the dp inspired sun, the mts the we scale, stars that i absolutely adore and nice fluffy clouds which i love too:D original idea by artist KWEK. mohaha. praise me PLEASE!!!
yest, val drove us to vivo:) whee, went shopping. the tradtional retail therapy still works, albeit just window shopping. its really great having a car... i wish i had passed my final theory back then:(

btw, thanks a million bren:) so touched to see the 凉茶hanging outside my door... thanks lynn tan for calling, i miss f4 man. 还是老朋友最棒了！

Lata Berembun

Touch training @ SENTOSA tanjong beach :D
i missed out the t, leaving an ouch, which acts as a sort of predicament for the upcoming.

nevertheless, its still a nice pic :)i like touch on the beach, much more than it is on the field. the tone changes dramatically. and that particular night, i set off along with the rest of my 29th com and 28th towards msia to trek.
*
I would say this trek's highlight isn't the actual trekking part but its 4 wheel drive and the slides and pools that the waterfall offer:) the trek is a mere half an hour and when we all reached the top, anticipating more to go, the guide nonchalently announced," here we are, here is the peak". *stun* anyhows, i found a nice emo spot at the peak but unfortunately time wasn't with us. we had to trek down rather quickly after some shots.

during the trek, we had to pass through this particular crossing where the current was pretty rapid and it was quite a shocker for me cuz my dear trekking partner almost got swept away by it. i got the shock of my life when i saw her floating on the way, hands outstrected. my heart almost popped out from my mouth. i extended my arms trying desperately to hold here but being non-water savvy myself i got pulled down as well. Thankfully for jon who came to the rescue and saved the damsel in distress. I ought to take up some swimming lessons.

Special THANKS to clara fu once again. w/0 u i bet i would have left a huge hole of regret in my heart. Thanks for being my life buoy:D I really really enjoyed the pooltime and being flushed down the slide with u:D totally trusted u with my life. haha. its quite funny that the uncle had warned me that at the time the waterflow is too rush and chances are the person who slides down will prob be caught in the turbulent flow and spin underneath abt 2 times and swallow 2 mouthful before surfacing. sounds pretty deadly huh? but a few minutes later the daredevils were bracing the currents and making thier way to the slidin spot alr. another heart stopping moment occured when adeline got caught beneath for the longest time and we all panicked. thankfully it was 有惊无险。tis' one brave lady . i tink i have alot to learn from her.

this is the view of our base camp. our tents were to the left of the pic so even the dead of the night, the waterfall is still majestically in its full prime, plummeting with such force yet exuding silent grace. i especially enjoyed the freezing bath in the waterfall, with the sprey on the face, lightly refreshing.
our pit stop at a food shop where we saw the largest pao and had some yummy ban mian and nice barley drink.
lo and behold! ever seen ppl trekking with life vest? here u go!proudly presenting the girls who survives the raging currents!

oh ya, heres one of my fav photos. colouful, teethy, windy:D

ROVERS 29 :)

*

i wish i had a doraemon to myself.

who will always be there for me

through thick and thin

through the bad and the sad

to scold me and teach me a lesson

bringing me back to the right path when i stray

yet at the end of the day

remain my bestest friend

magically whipping out useful and kinky gadgets

to lighten my burden

put a smile on my face

to exterminate all the sorrow

chase away the blues

making the impossibles possible

sit beside me

and enjoy sunrise, sunset

enjoy the wind in our hair

and sprey on our faces

tgt we will enjoy our

tong luo shao

and endulge in life's simple pleasures

life would be wonderful

thanks yuny and lynn:)

thank you

sorry

i love you

(why is it that such simple phrases are being used most sparingly?)

all i need now is someone to hold me tight
and tell me everything will be alright

I am the next act waiting in the wings
I am an animal trapped in your hot car
I am all the days that you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You are all I need
I am in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

I am a moth who just wants to share your light
I’m just an insect trying to get out of the night
I only stick with you because there are no others

You are all I need
You are all I need
I am in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

It’s all wrong
It’s all right
It’s all right
It’s all wrong
It’s all right
It’s all right
It’s all right

voiceless

in either way
im voiceless
from the inside out
im bleeding

A: "my hair is in a mess!"
B: "i lend u comb :) "

"my life is in a mess"
who will lend me a comb?
-

back from uhwc
alone
bumped into a number of kr ppl there
felt like a complete loser
doc gave me a powerful medicine
i hope it gives me power

surviver

2 essay.
24 pages.
10days ( -3days for treks one day bday celeb for momo)=6 days

1 stupid girl that tot still have 2 weeks.

will she survive?

i love floorball!!!

( haha i realise today very extreme... but lucky it ended in a happy note :) )
Apologies for my previous "volcanic eruotion" -

YIPEE! lucky for this floorball trg that made my day!

so happy whee heheehehe :DDDDD

initially i got "scolded" by our coach, " xiaoting! no ihg player will hold the stick that way!"

aiyahhhh i alr used to holding with my right hand ma... bad habit.
but he repeated that twice! not that i really very sad or wad la...but just ohoh... and i tried my best to control the stick with my left. but habits die hard. anw...im trying hard to 改掉坏习惯。

den came the double double drill...wahahaha!!! i damn happy cuz i can directly whack the ball in the goal! wheee！! somemore coach tell the team must learn from ME, farah, CJ and sher(oh my 天, those 3 are like fb 神can.wah, i hear my name mention beside them i can feel the magical aura liao... lol. ok , abit exaggarated liao. )

den also the shooting machine drill where got a small goal post and we must siam it den shoot. hoseh la! b zb commented that i shot in 2 goal outta 7!mUAHAHA., actually i tink i shot in 3 ! whahahahahhah. cuz i am very lucky cuz i go behind CJ, den he whack very hard de, so the goalie mayb reaction time not so fast den come MUAH liao! wahahah. LALALALA happy~

and 砍菜hong also damn funny! lol. shes so cute! ppl snap shot hers is chop vegetable shot! machiam wanna spilt the mpsh floor into half lidat. kekeke.

who doesn't love being praised? kekeke.
over the moon!

let me bask in this self-fulfillment and joy for now!
* yay qing and hong coming for my berkelah trek! wheeeee! ;)

PISSED

fyi
SO MUCH FOR BEING INITIATIVE. WTF.
Sorry about that. Just thought that could let more ppl know about
booth:(Sorry for any inconvenience caused

DO I NEED TO HUMBLE MYSELF AND SWALLOW ALL MY PRIDE?
WHERE IS THE UNITY? WHERE IS THE COMMUNICATION?
WHATEVER.
I AM THE UGLY AND STUPID SECRETARY.

thanks for the sequel following my sick and emo mood. THANKS MAN

summary

Friday 17/10-
Blood Donation+ Shopping for Hawaiian themed identity with Adeline
adeline sad cuz she couldnt donate blood... iron too low le.. eat more meat la! lol

our dessert...一人一半， 感情不散 :)

my creation:) i especially like the border with the heart. haha
28th Appreciation Dinner @ Sandy Palms

Special thanks to Cynthia aunt for helping me book the location and providing the floats and vball:) Im so glad to have such nice relatives...
claire and i making johnny bravo soup. lol.
29th Rovers Sect Cell with our mascot!

29th comm~( missing jon who is photographer and ww whos in night safari! :(
花。 aka. gdine's slimming face pose.
oink2
we are all overgrown kids ^v^
the legendary 鹤photo... in water!

Lata Berembun...

anticipating!

but abit worried tooo....

ahhh... nvm, sat come quick!

quote

"your depression will not outlast the universe"

tanjong rhu

Credits to Ivan:
Kahlil Gibran says to "go to your fields and your gardens, and you shall learn that it is the pleasure of the bee to gather honey of the flower, But it is also the pleasure of the flower to yield its honey to the bee. For to the bee a flower is a fountain of life, And to the flower a bee is a messenger of love, And to both, bee and flower, the giving and the receiving of pleasure, is a need and an ecstasy."

tanjong rhu. the casuarina cove.
films bring one into a haven. (ie=watching a film and being drawn into it is an escapade)

uni lectures are getting really interesting. mayb i should consider the sexuality module. haha.

i wish all guys were as sensitive.

House Bunny

when u are overwhelmed with fright and terror.

imagine watching films about war, terrorism,deaths and politics.
early in the morn.
not exactly a very good way to start your day.
SC2214 MASS MEDIA AND SOCIETY.
NOT FOR THE LIGHT HEARTED.
yet, it is one of the most enlightening modules which exposes one to the harsh and bitter reality of life.

it send shivers down my spine to know that whatever is running in the film was REAL, it wasnt JUST a show that people created in their minds or some drama that people conjured out.

IT WAS A FACT. STONE COLD FACT.

innocent people being killed
houses bombed and families torn
all in the name of "democracy"
(democratice or we'll kill you!)

in the name of truth
sacrifice
is it worth it?
why are people so power hungry, so evil, sooooo BAD and complicated.
简简单单， 开开心心，快快乐乐，这样不是很好吗？

what i found even more interesting was the change in my emotions...
shock-pity-sad-fear-anger-confusion-ambivalence-respect-helplessness
and the eventual
nonchanlence.
but having experienced the prior emtions, is nonchalence truly nonchalence. i dont know...

the heart is such an amazing organ

when the lights comes out* switch
hole in the heart
the light is an invisible blanket/cloak
so overwhelming that it hangs in the air.
consuming me whole.
×

thankfully, for the movie with qing:)
( the buncha stupid boys in front also made the movie more amusing)
人间是有希望的！！！

×for my own reference V
y1: kr 3s3c
y2: rovers + < 1/2 <3-ed kr
y3: apprehension :(((

i dun wanna plunge down when i have climbed thus far.
and become a void.

monday..blu..(no time to )...blues

what a packed day!

this is in stark contrast to my relaxing holiday over the weekends ever since the horrific mass media paper.

*warning: mundanes ahead*

after morn bfast with mama and momo

( bg: usual kiddywinks wearing their swimsuits and highly anticipated faces boarding the school bus).

gosh i miss taking a school bus...

went back to kr.

(its quite amazing how i nv fail to meet someone i know at the bus stop. haha. gm, py, pegs. whos next)

spring cleaning!

(aiyoi so dirty! i need a broom la, magic mop is not magical enuf...)

lessons all the way till 6:(

boring
went sheng siong buy ingredients for food cooking tut.

shun bian do my own groceries hee.
cook cook.

fun! i like to cook hee. den i was abit worried cuz i have krv interview at 9.30
den my stupid phone kept ringing

. felt like a big business woman. lol.

seriously. the pace of life in hall is like 10,000 times faster than at home.

~
my 心血 for my beloved OCTOBER BABIES in Rovers...

which one nicest lei??? hee..

i enjoy making cards for friends:) cuz i understand the joy of receiving a handmade card. so i always like to make cards with the foresight of a happy face receving it. and that makes me happy:)

recently i've been receiving sms that make me relive those good o'days in sec school. 好怀念啊！its ppl like adeline and jon that makes me feel that not all have changed... haha. all those nice msgs and postcard sending days are not totally gone afterall~

its the small things that matters the most

im amazed at how this set of markers can last from my primary school days till now... :D

what do u do at roof-tops?

when u study until keee siaooo alr..
u meet up with some fellow crazy neighbours...the poison ivy whips out a camera with multi-frame shots...narcist dung starts cam-whoring with MY phone. lol

introducing Ms Thailand, Ms Vietnam and Ms Singapore! lol
let run for our lives!!!ah hong is the only sane one... (but not for long...keke)
2 pretty girls!

so far, i've had supper, dinner, lunch at rooftop b4... mayb 1 day i shall wake up for bfast.( EHHHH, but wont have sunrise! :(( den wake up for wad...)

Let the show begin!

haha, this is only like the tip of the iceberg...

i rmb that particular evening, the skies wasnt of any remarkable beauty, but yet, it was the company and genuine laughters and friendship that painted the invisible hues.

Cheers to having such marvellous friends:)