the organ

*little boy sobs at a corner*

little girl: mummy why is he crying?
mother: dont worry, he just wants a new organ
little girl: then why dont u buy him one?
mother: its not that easy darling. mayb he wont need it anymore in 2 years time.

i wish mariah carey's song is true.
there can be miracles, when you believe.

irreversible scars.

in the face of adversity,together we'll pull through.
with a smile on our face, we will fight this battle.
加油

health

the most understated importance.
So often neglected and brushed aside
We take it too much for granted.

I hope Tues will bring about good news. im hoping for the best.

I dont know how to break the news to the 29th that i might be able to go for the holiday treks.

Unless i could be teleported back to Sg upon receiving any calls....
haiz.

I knew sth was wrong and more severe when that amateur mentioned sth about a surgery and taking samples. DAMNIT. now that the bubbles are metaphorically burst...

to be honest, i have yet to soak it in fully and i dont know what to feel.
but during dinner with mom, i blurted out the question burning in my heart.
will he die? did they mention how long more he has to live?

the shrunken lungs. i wish i could inflate it.

the warm concern

i really love these photos. apart from the night hues( love the 3 distinct lakes of red, yellow and blue), i love the fact that it evokes loneliness and vulnerabiltity. yet if u notice, there is warmth. why? anyone knows? haha.(let me know)

Thank You Mabel and Zhu:)

美宝我爱你！u were like an angel descending from the heavens! was that a halo above your head when u appeard in front of me?! heeee

im looking fwd to the 21st. Hee

ps. sometimes i really wonder who are those that read my blog.....

anw today i saw K. happy hee hee

verbal vomit

im feeling a whole myraid of emotions right now and i cant say its on the positive scale.


theres this chilling and airy feeling in my body
the invisible hole is causing me coldness and emptiness that seems to scale the russian winter
like acid on bright metal
burning through
but not the passionate warm fire
its cold

it consists of pent up frustration, jealousy, angst, irritation, anger, vex

i have been reading too much about homosexuals and their grand love rendezvous.


is it really true that everyone has someone to love? (whether to give or receive)

i feel really sad cuz i have no clue at all.

i find it really sad and hisheartening. when will my wait end?



its painful to consider all the possible routes that one can take only to realise that u are doubly, triply and infinitely marginalised and rejected.

who to love? who loves you?

romantic love aside, all i need is a little shower of concern and care and that i am loved.

like it or not, i can feel whether u are genuinely nice or fake(ingly) nice to me. and i really hate it when ppl TRY to be nice. it disgusts me. i feel like spitting on your face when you do so.


having said that, mayb sometimes i deserve to be spat on too.

the hospital has made me cynical.( or mayb that was a breastplate of consiousness)( my defence mechanism at work)( i dont know and im disgusted at myself for being able to laught at them) (who knows one day i might be the one lying there and this fat,ugly girl with inverted specs start slaughing like a siao char boh)(ah the power of parenthesis)



haha1:
crazy guy being tied up.

nurse: do you know where u are?
guy: i'm in japan
nurse: ok in japan. u want me to feed u?(refer to 3 sentence up)
...duh...i wish i was crazy like u



haha2:
uncle with whole body filled with tattoo
os: wahseh, so cool, but so sad, no one visit u, chao ah beng

haha3:

i outta be slapped for this.

old frail uncle kept whizzing and coughing. each cough sounded like it was going to be his last.
os: walao so noisy, poor thing no one visit u also. haiz



haha4:

dimentia uncle that is very unsatisfied with cgh and wants to transfer to sgh.
him: nurse nurse, i cannot see.
nurse: put on your glasses uncle( with the distinct phillipino accent) mom told me philipinos are more patient and caring( which reminds me of aunty r(d0e) rae mee who took care of me-nice) (phillipinos in windsor)
him: (after complaining about all the facilities and lack of it) What ( kind of ) hospitial is this?!
nurse: (flatly and indignantly)changi general hospital

him: nurse... Nurse... NURSE
nurs: yes uncle, how can i help u?
him: rubbing his stomach,.. my kidney...

him: nurse nurse
nures: yes uncle?
him: my heart.....

*



i wish i had someone to tell all these to.

i wish you would listen.

i wish i nv had to think so hard of who to reach out for

just to give myself a blank list

after going through all, i would consider

you, you, you and you will be busy

i wish i nv had to write all these into a cold hard machine

i wish i nv had to say

i wish you would ask

would understand


*
but it never happened.

SEEKING TREKKING FRIENDS!

Calling out to all friends!

if u have the slightest interest in ANY of the treks offered by

http://www.o-adventure.blogspot.com/

PLS GO TAKE A LOOK!!! its really really super nice and tempting!

(JAPAN/indon/south africa/vietnam)

PLSPLSPLSPLS let me know!!!
I'm really SUPER interested to go!!!!

OMG, i should consider joining Moutaineering next year liaooooooo!

先甜后哭

回忆过去。。
just a few hours ago...( ps yuny: i bot 3 more new tops!!!) wahaha. damn happy:D
yummy mango pudding at 仁仁 :D

Teoheng with CZPS frenz:)

my baby photo which adeline has been hounding us for quite some time. haha.( i realise i was shorter than the fan!?)

prior to that on mon, 29th were trying to make all the coins stand..

the TOPONE peeps.

YAY! yuny i totally NEVER regret giving up sleep for this shopping session man! next time i will nv say i am not intending to buy anything le. lol

我喜欢，可是。。。price high, hem high:S

i kinda like this shoes but... wait till i ensure MIDAS doesn't have it first. free shoes better!( YUNY! city plaza tgt pls~!)

i love the red bean flavour ice cream!:D green tea one the MOF one better!

B2B～hmm i realise i have the appetite as vast as the universe... seriously i wanna go geylang and try out the 牛和, frog leg porridge, guilingao! ahh...

i like that the car was halfway in:)

thanks for coming! if not for u i think we'll have cycled to pulau ubin.ha. anw i tink u can really mix with the arts ppl while i belong to the engine ah pek clique.lol. i was really tickled when the guys started rambling on abt NS den u interrupted in declaring, LETS TALK MENSTRATION.LOL

FIONA'S 21ST~ im really glad i went for this:)

i love the beach shots:D it was really fun!

fiona's so sweet! she gave us a hanky for doorgift and the meaning behind it was to thank us for crying and sweating tgt with her(at least this is what i interpret la)awww... and it was a really useful gift cuz i got to use it during b2b later in the night. haha

one of my fav shot:)

ah i tot this pic is interesting too. the celebrity with the paparazi.too bad cuz of the blur

yoga! E is so slim! haizz time to diet. bahz

hahahahahahaha. faster take laaaaaa

BIZ COM PHOTOSHOOT

movie = huge motivation to finish my essay! thanks gazillion val!:D

i love river island clothes! but they are damn ex. grrrr. anw, those are my clothes, i just liked my scarf that way:) wahaha, im a narcissist.

***

anw, its always good to say yes to everything. it opens out a new horizon:)

but having said that, to make it really meaninful, it takes both hands to clap to create a wonderful and memorable event for both. if not, it remains like fireworks.

beautiful, but lasting only for a moment.

612 星球

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵

认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手

责备什麼人也没有用

玫瑰都红 难免看错

望著天空爱是否活在童话裏头

小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂

原来每颗心都有个洞

找不到真爱 会一直寂寞

Oh-- 我但愿有一个人在等我

在属於我的612星球

好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走

不快乐至少要有梦

一定会有一个人在等我

无条件拥抱著我的所有

相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘

花别谢太快 请你等等我

擦乾眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙

小王子说爱一定开在某个角落

路上相爱的人那麼多

我会幸福吗 在什麼时候 Oh—

shakespeare

im happy with my buy today:) at a steal of $4.

sometimes i wonder...
what if you are a player?
does that make me one too?

im looking fwd to the escapade to mama nature!

my crossing
where LOVE and PEACE lies
my surreal and serene surroundings.

stong, ophir, bcl,
berkelah(hello again)

February highlights

there seems to be alot of feb babies(xm,lynn,gc,fiona...)and i found myself making quite alot of cards! but i also realise that i do enjoy making cards! haha. one friend and i once had a debate over "present or card" guess whats mine? haha.


LYNN'S 21ST
alrighty, lets have a "foot start" with this pic...


the beautiful feet of our bday queen!
haha, f3 were on the free shuttle bus and our beloved clara was spotted on the road! talk about 巧！

i really like this natural shot of ky but she doesnt :( haha

we were supposed to see the lunar eclipse! haha. but it was a good experience at the flyer nevertheless:)

love this shot. postcard worthy yea?

anw, i tink if i were lynn i'd be really happy. haha. really had a fun time playing the taboo cards that was custom made for lynn and just having f4 tgt again makes me feel really happy:) although our romantic flyer experience wasnt with A SPECIAL ONE, but we have THREE SPECIAL ONES. yay!and it was quite a thrill to rush thanks to MRS ORDER-FAST FOOD-ALSO-CAN-SO-DAMN-SLOW. (the other line served abt 5 customers alr and our line was still stick at her) on a side note,YES la, we finally ventured somewhere outside tampines. lol.i can just imagine us 10 years down the road...:D

den came the (cursed)V day. lol. i was really dreading it cuz i painted the doomsday scenerio of me being a loser being all alone and emo in hall waiting for the floorball match. but thankfully Zhu and Mab and i decided to spend it tgt:D it was really wonderful and all smiles:) esp the very tight-scheduled movie-shopping spree with Mab:) and i was commenting that thankfully i din really see any super sweet couple that made me depressed. haha, anyhow, i tink really sweet couples wouldn't be spending the time in malls.

after lunch, we proceeded for desserts:) HOTBALLS.haha

nice coffee set!

@ Waraku

在地原位连理枝； 在天愿做比翼鸟

zhu, im secretly happy that u are still single and available. haha. although if u weren't i would be happy for u too:) lets wait for the right one to ignite the flame.

kawaii de mab! haha. u ah, got ppl date u, u go suan him.tsktsk. haha. anw, really happy we are able to "date" each other and be each others valentine. lol. i love my cold udon tempura set!

MY GOTH VALENTINE-

gc's 21st party! (mini czps gathering in fact)

he gave us roses! so sweet of him:)

my piyo star 1! love it that after like so many years, we are still the SAME! haha. oh, i must mention that bday parties are like places for guys to oogle at girls lo. fung even got 2 guys asking for her contacts via jx. dono whether to laugh or cry. anw, im very happy cuz we have another K session coming up le! yipee~

sometimes, im really amazed at how i can turn on "super friendly mode" and blabber cock non stop.mayb i can consider the job as entertainer.

the only shot i have of dA MAN on my phone. haha. See how important he is to me...(super give face sia) i had to travel all the way from west to east after one whole gruelling day of matches. Coupled with the fact that i have a freaking essay to hand up and have yet started a tiniest bit the next day with 10am lessons waiting for me.

FLOORBALL CARNIVAL DAY.

KR, STICK IT UP YOUR ASS!

we got really crazy doing "LETS GO STEPPERS". haha.

the invisible lines that seperates heaven from hell.
你带我上天堂，又推我下去

that white lie did nothing more than to make my heart sink a little bit more

chiny and i. :) i tink friendship and camaradie is really amazing. some people try sooo hard yet just cannot get along, some just get along so well as if they knew each other since ages ago. im really glad that u shared ur thoughts with me.

tasha the bulldozer and teh susu the grinning defender-turn-fwd. haha. both of them are (wo)man(s) of the match(es)! so proud of them!

check out the latest fashion sock. 4 tieres!lol.

mismatch is the in thing now.

shoutout to emo frenz: i have found a new emo spot:)

I promise you, I'll never lose myself to self-pity again. -The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

absolutely